what's so called being Positive...

now we could easily find the self-improvement-books or courses..which lead to become positive person..whenever we read the books or joined the course or training/workshop..its like we found something new..something that we could apply to our daily life..specially things to do with our professional work life..., How to think B to reach B thing, How we should not limit our thought or ability..sort of thing like that ...

Everything looks easily to follow, complete with guidance of steps...to get the final result. My frend told me that She got the result already by following this, thus she made the decision that She would quit the job by mid of this year and build her own thing..i was so impressed about her decision ...

another fren of mine, she made the decision to leave the job as a secretary and became an insurance agent together with her husband and she made it, i saw her name on the newspaper where her insurance company put a big Ad putting her names as MDRT (i didnt know what it means..just called it as achievement...)

Then the problem why i didnt have a courage to do the same ... many people said if you dont love the job then leave...is that simple? what about set of responsibility that you have...? should we have put them on consideration right? or am i too coward to face the changes?...exactly i feel like a coward now...completely... , i love my job really ... but in the certain circumstances i've been pushed not to like them at the same time ...

i have busy brain at this moment..but no time for regret...yes NO regret. Its time to move on, be positive and grateful ... as i heard the preacher told me last Sunday which really inspired me pure and simple ... but sometime hardly to manifest in my daily life...

GOD give the prosperity in all areas to be our right as fruits

but the root should be built in holy life ... both in tought, mind, heart and behaviour so then

our life would be fruitfull and blessed ...

i was stunned listening to these words.., if so..i definetely need HELP.....

Liburan tanpa rencana..

Liburan yang tidak direncanakan itu tepatnya mungkin judulnya,... crita keputusan ini di ambil karna para Asisten-2 handal di rumah pada pulang kampung..karna "mantu" dan yang satu sebagai tantenya juga harus hadir..akhirnya..."yours trully" ini harus cuti untuk melakukan tugas2 yang memang seharusnya menjadi tugas pokok sebagai ibu rumah tangga yang selama ini terabaikan...toooooooooooooolloooooooonggg....

Alih2 ini kerjaan setiap lebaran, eh ini terjadi in the middle of the year..not even middle dech baru kuartal pertama kali ya...ya udah si mami mesti cuti..., eh si ayah ikutan cuti..membayangkan harus melakukan semuanya sendiri aja udah pegel2...akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk ikutan pulang kampung nengok orang-tua ... acara berbhakti sekalian ngungsi dech...(manja memang ya...kita ini..) anak2 juga ikutan cuti dech...dengan membawa materi2 pelajaran selama bolos 3 hari.. "3-days-home-schooling" la critanya...who's gonna be the teacher?.... ga perlu di jelasin kali ya..

Kakak Gifta yang masih harus bertanggung-jawab atas keputusan bolos orang-tuanya dengan mengerjakan tugas2 3-days-home-schooling di kamar hotel...., dan suka protes kenapa nugra engga Mi...? karna nugra masih kecil ya...? nach itu tau jawabnya..

Jumat malam this business took effect ..semua asisten udah ngga ada...jadi "no-friday-after-work-coffee" dech...bye mba nah, bye mba titi..jangan telat pulangnya ya..., dengan yakin si mami bisa meng-handle semua sendiri...whats difficult about it anyway kan?... wanti2 ke ayah...."yah..kalo pulang malem langsung makan di luar aja ya..., biar ngga usah masak lagi.." dengan cepat ayah setuju..."beres..." katanya mantap..., jam 9 malam ayah pulang ...tanya "mi ada makanan apa?" LHO! katanya mau makan di luar...ah ngga sempet...jadi....udach alhasil...terpaksa nyalain kompor...dan seadanya lah.. dadar telor, sayur seadanya yang penting. nasi hangat.. cukup..cuma urusannya yaitu cuci piriiiiiiiiiing, penggorengan dan temen2nya dech...(he..he..he..)

Gifta ajak nugra main "swing it" istilah si kakak, dengan patuh penumpang setuju dengan arrangement kakak, lama the swing makin kenceng sampe-sampe penumpang teriak2 dech..., akhirnya penumpang turun, tapi ... buat kakak..tetep swing with or without dech..!! jalan terus...

Sabtu pagi, rencana kita mau langsung ke Purwokerto setelah semua beres, rumah beres..anak2 beres..soonest the best...eh ternyata ngga beres..., check list panjang...coz we're gonna 8 hours driving with children..jadi mesti make sure semua tersedia..dari siapin makanan, susu, snacking....pokoknya name it..."better safe than sorry" alhasil ...banyak banget yg mesti di bawa..., tapi anak2 begitu sweet-sweet-potato (apa coba maksudnya..) ...so independent dan mengagumkan, big sister take care of her brother..and the other way around cukup menolong..., Nugra sempet bantuin ngepel..., Gifta jagain adeknya..dengan gaya big-sister!pushed-him-around!... telling nugra what to do...jadi Boss Gifta?

Lima hari perjalanan yang cukup melelahkan..kita singgah ke 5 kota..tapi menjadi hal2 yang menyenangkan, banyak hal yang kita lupa untuk kita omongin secara suami-istri gitu lho.., jadi keinget selama perjalanan...Jakarta-Purwokerto to see Opa for 2 nights-Jogja one night to see Eyang-Cirebon one night to see nobody... kebayang dech capeknya..tapi semua dilalui dengan baik..

Selama perjalanan kita makan yang kita mau makan, kita minum apa yang pengen kita minum ngga peraturan...rambu2nya cuma sepanjang anak2 bisa makan akhirnya segala peraturan food combining dan air hangat plus jeruk nipis tinggal kenangan sepanjang cuti...sarapan pagi di hotel, siang dan malam..apa yg anak2 mau..biasanya ayam goreng kalasan ..dan kremesnya jadi menu hampir setiap siang,...... tapi bakso dan cendol..itu adalah..."apa yg mami mau...." hhmm...lezat dech...

Biarin aku yang jagain ade Mum.., waduch ok nich Gifta.., sambil cuci piring masih sempet denger these lovely sister-brother ngobrol..."Nugra..sekarang kita main ..adek-kakak ya..., aku yang jadi kakaknya ..nugra yang jadi adeknya ya..., nanti kalo aku suruh tidur harus mau ya..." mulai dech si sutradara kasih arahan pemain ....jadi senyum2 sendiri dech dengernya ada2 aja si kakak nich....aduch beruntung dech si nugra dapet peran sesuai kenyataan...jadi casting-nya gampang ya nugra...he..he..

Sesuai jadwal kita sampai di jakarta Rabu malam. dengan membayangkan rumah yang udah rapi dan bersih...jadi tinggal bongkar barang..tanpa harus "bebenah lagi" karna sesuai perjanjian dengan dearly asistant mba titi, kembali ke jakarta rabu pagi..eh..ada sms...selasa malam..."ibu maaf disini hujan deres, ngga ada yg anter ke terminal jadi pulang di tunda..." ach...kecewa..tp kata Gifta harus dibales mam.."ya udah ngga papa gitu..." ok..dech masa di ajarin anak sich.... malu hati tp sebel aku ketik sms "ok" mau gimana lagi....

Rabu malam itu sampe dijakarta tanpa terlihat lelah Gifta dan Nugra masih tetep suasana bermain..sampai jam 12 malam... ngga bisa tidur kata mereka.., ya iya karna tidur sepanjang jalan di mobil... sementara si ayah dan si mami kelelahan pengen tidur..., akhirnya mereka terlelap juga....kita pun langsung terkapar.., jam 5 pagi terbangun ada orang mengetuk di bawah..tek-tek-tek...langsung terbangun lari membuka pintu...dari lantai atas kutengok....mbak titi ya..." ada jawaban di bawah...."iya bu........Hooooraaaaaaaaaaaaaaay........ my hero is coming.....

Its good to be alone..only four of us.., but if i do have a choice its better if there're somebody around helping us.., Guys you are really our great partner ... thank you for being with us..so far. Thank you..thank you.... !!!

the Story about saying i love you...

the three magic words " i love you"... for some people its just words.. easy to say it even they didnt mean that..(for real), and for some others these words are really...really difficult to spell. Im kinda person who easily say the words i love you or i miss you..but i did mean that..and i would never fake my feeling for the sake of courtesy or just having lips service conversation or whatsoever..."never have and never will" its just genuinely expressing my feeling and nothing wrong with that..., i may say that i love my husband and children different when i love my frens..but its still love, isnt it? and i'll keep saying it..to persons that i feel to say it..."i love you..."

this is the little story about saying i love you in a little family of mine..., this is what i do before we go to bed

+ me : i love you Gifta..
- Gifta : i love you mum..
+ me : i love you nugra
- Nugra : i love you mum
+ me : i love you ayah
- ayah : hhhmmmm...
+ Gifta : mum..i told you not to say i love you to ayah...
- Nugra : wrong ayah, i love you mami...gituh!!

Yup, my children were protesting my better-half why he didnt say love me back.., i said its ok..mum's gonna say anyway... for i know he's deeply in love with me (wink..wink..wink..), and the story goes..and i keep doing it..and got "the-hhhmmm-answer" ...

and one-friday-night...this ritual keep rolling...

+ me : i love you Gifta..
- Gifta : i love you mum..
+ me : i love you nugra
- Nugra : i love you mum
+ me : i love you ayah
- ayah : i love you mami..
+ Gifta : Yewwww....ayah say i love you....
- Nugra : Good my dad ...good...(with-cute-little-acting-adult- voice..)

the children were surprisingly happy to hear their ayah spelling the words, what about me ..surprised...no..not at all, i told you..he's gonna say it.., he felt that..he just need to get used to it...i told you he's in love with me.... :-) with or without the words....

I love you guys....!!!

Drumband Competition...

Gifta and her friends before going to Istora Senayan
(gifta-salma-ayu-nisa)

about more than a month..my girl had been busy preparing for this drum-band competition. specially for the last-two weeks, they're working out like every day... after school, during Saturday... when they were supposed to have holiday.., i was not able to watch her practice but i followed the progress..., my girl joined as flag guard.."do the dancing..." most of her gang joined the same category..., she almost gave up in the first time..shock of discipline culture.. . she got from her trainer/teacher..ha..ha.. " mami..i don't want to go for drum-band practice anymore..." hhhmmm...i dont want her to grow to be a quitter..so then i told her i would talk to her teacher not to hard on her.... she said no..no..no.. so then i rest my case (wink)

the competition was held on istora senayan last saturday..., i woke her up 5.30 in the morning for she should be at her school by 7 o'clock..and before that we have done her hair do as balerina and make-up ... to be honest..i could not do it so then i left it to the expert.... she was still completely sleepy....and not in the mood..., "c'mon kakak..its a big day....wake up..let me see your smile.." my-standard-mummy-style ...and it works all the time...yes, its B day...new experience..for her and us also as parents..

there was 12 contestant.., our children was no. 6.... so then we watched 4 others 1 was W-O...our hearts was beating....hows its gonna be..they're only 6 years old kids..., but WOW...big WOW...it was really baguuuuuuuuussss... banget, all the mommies..gave all the support by screaming...shouting their school name.. as loud as could be..so then our children could hear..i thought it was the wildest supporter so far..in that competition... ha..ha.. while the mommies screaming and giving yell-yell.. daddies stay still...with handy-cam ha..ha.. very contradiction..it doesnt mean they didnt give the support..its just different kinda way they express things..., we are so proud of them and hillariously happy... i felt tears in my cheek... (terharus bow!! secara anak gue gitu lho....) after everything finished..we realized that we didnt much picture of it..., but still lucky..the cool daddy a.k.a ayah got it on his handy-cam... that's why mom-dad should have different characters... :-)

we left home after they finished..coz our children looks tired.., they need some rest.., and got it from text-message..."they are 3rd winner and chosen to be favorite team..." we expect to be 1st winner of course like last year...but the most important thing was that we saw that our children have already gave their best...that's all matter to us, and as parents-teachers we were really a great team in the same spirit for our children.....

way to go..children...
we are so proud of you.....!!!

Ps. i would up-load the video after got it from ayah..