lovely card..from Gifta

i believe every Mum would feel the same as i did when i got this lovely card from Gifta on Mother Day..., maybe the whole class made this for their mum..but still..made me special..thank you Gifta...

beautiful isnt it? nothings compares to this...

even Hallmark could not compete with this one...
thank you sweetheart...

Mami selalu check ...

the picture of nugra for you..

its always nice receiving compliment from people specially from the one that we care and love..and we were young..we young..once of course we often got lost becoz of those compliments...(read : rayuan2 gombal..) we enjoyed them even though sometimes it completely false..but we loved it anyway... but thing changed when i met someone today i called him ayah who seldom gave this rayuan2 from "once-upon-the-time-period" till ....now he..he.. its just like you expect "hujan emas" eh..itu mah bukan jarang ya..ngga pernah ya...he..he..

Since became Mum..i always try my best to put my feet the ground...(ceile..suit--suit) but turned out i've been receiving lots of the most genuine compliments ever from my loved ones...my children..like for food we prepared..or just the unbelievably understanding attitude...

one touchy conversation with nugra at 11 o'clock nite when i just got home from meeting...(wuich..kesan gimana gitu ya..jadi malu!!)

+ Hi .. Nugra..kok belum bobo...?
(with-guilty-mum-feeling!!! for real)

- Belum..lagi tunggu mami..
so sweet..but made me even felt guilt to my bones..

+ Nugra, mami mau ngomong nich.., mami minta maaf ya.., kalo akhir2 ini mami pulang terlambat terus.., tapi ini cuma sementara kok..nanti juga pulang cepet lagi..
(hopefully pretty soon...keep my faith...)

- iya mi, ngga papa kok...
(wisdom from 4 years old boy that you could not even imagine...)

+ sekarang bobo sama mami yuukk

- ok...
- mami ...

+ ya kenapa nugra..?

- mami itu selalu check ngga pernah cross....
(he learned that check for the right answer and cross from the right one.. ouch!!!)

oh boy...Nugra my darling..when i felt that i gave him lack of time but in return he gave me the world..thank you my boy..it meant a lot to me, im so sorry if mum still has to spend so much time for outside the house.. but its only temporary i promise you....thank you for marking me as check instead of cross even though..mum deserve cross...dont you think? :-(

Too Much...

Too much is not good, and some are so true.., but some are exception..like too much money..(ever heard thing like that..? Arrrrrrrghh..never been so far...), i've been evaluating myself what i've been doing for the last couple months specially on "too much thing"...very interesting how i found myself very unorganized-person...

• too much spending on coffee-n-frens .. imperial bakery, bakerzia, excelso, starbuck, dome, coffee club which not good for health and not good for wallet ... :-(

• too much chatting...

• too much watching Desperate Housewives in a day... which almost acting like one..

• too much thinking about the idea of having ideal relationship...which so fairy-tale!

• too much illusion of having a better shape..kurus maksudnya..

but in the end of day.. i wake up knowing that those too much thing i've done..."ngga penting.....!!!" im just happy as i am... wuiiiich...i feel good...

Cerita Sehari-hari...

Up-dating our life story which maybe most people think would be narcis..but hey..this is the reason why we do blogging right.., feeling right of being narcis... :-) with the reason up of dedicating the story for the loved ones.. but to be more fair and honest..its just more fulfilling my need or emotions..he..he..sorry guys..i think thats the truth...

This entry's just going to be like any other daily life moment..., just one week-end over another. Last Friday, i met Aurell's mum...Mira, Aurell's one of Gifta's fren at school. Both Aurell and Gifta wanted to go to spend time
together...like going to the mall...which really ok to me. Simple.. the Kids could have fun, so were the mums.., Kidz went to the playground with nannys...and after making sure everything's ok..we went for "whatever"...whatever here means really whatever..ha..ha..

This Saturday, our choice was Senayan City...coz we arrived lunch time then we directly went to Hoka-hoka Bento..every body (read : Aurell, Gifta n Nugra) had Shrimp, rice and Choc-Puding..hhmmm...then continued to Playmall...as the ritual..ok, the children would play about an hour there with Nannies so Mira and I had an hour also to go around..(ayah was not in picture..he's doing some training from work)

What Mums did..while children were playing..up-dating clothing situation (well...none!!), and then go..shoes..(well...none!!)..and go to ATM to finished the utilities bills (check...done!!)..and we end at Excelso me having latte and club sandwich complete with chips (guilty as charged..ouch!!) while Mira had Evian..hhmm..this gorgeous Lady really now how to behave....(wink!)....chit-chat-chit-chat...from planing swimming at Bellagio, week-end at Bandung, Bangkok..or even long-week end in Perth...have no idea at all which one is gonna be the real plan....one hour finished..we have to pick up our children...

Mira said she had to leave for something.., and i tot the same ..but my girl really insisted to play for more..art deco or make something...there you go..next destination Kidz Station Gifta made some painting..Nugra played hotwheel..end up buying ones... while me..juz look around, hey i found good discount on dish-ware.., and browsing gift for Nugras fren...."beautiful swimming towel with Cinderella on it" ... check and buy...

Nothing much we did actually just like ordinary week-end, we stopped for some groceries on the back home just around the neighbourhood, everybody's tired in the end and have rest after except me coz i have to do check and balance... but look what i got...Bills..and Bills..Oh No, we spent so much and its only 11th of the month...another strategy has to be done...Planning of taking rest was postponed after doing "the-check-and-balance things" HELP..somebody...HELP....!!

Perjuangan hidup...?

Sekarang lagi musim penawaran 50% diskon untuk makan di resto-resto baik yang di mall atopun yang bukan...jadi memicu orang untuk makan...dengan harga yang murah..meskipun mahal karna memang restonya juga mahal.. Siang ini temenku mau traktir makan di Tony Romas karena ada promosi 50% untuk kartu kredit tertentu..yang ternyata orang2 pada antri..dan kalo pake kartu itu baru dapet seat buat makan 1 jam kemudian yang artinya kita harus berdiri 1jam hanya untuk makan ??????... %#***&&&**** (apa tuch artinya!!!)... buat aku pribadi ogah amat......, ternyata temenku si penraktir yg akan terbebani biaya makan siang itu..juga tidak sudi..., jadi lebih baik dia bayar full daripada harus antri...ha..ha...akhirnya berhasilah itu promosi resto mencapai tujuan..., karna masih ada quota meja buat pelanggan yg mau membayar lebih banyak :-( .... tanpa berusaha menyalahkan..thats' business, right? Perjuangan orang mau makan? thats not perjuangan pastinya ya..karna hanya memenuhi keinginan lidah dan perut bukan kebutuhan...

Akhirnya kita makan, dan selesai cepat2 karna harus ber-empati sama orang2 yang ngantri di luar...masak kita enak2 ngobrol sementara banyak orang nunggu seat kita di luar panas2 (cukup panas lah..di wahid hasyim secara dihalaman gitu...) dan alhasil..assisten yg suka antar jemput kita (me and children) belum masih selesai jemput anak2, akhirnya..cegat taxi, and back to office...trus apa crita judul perjuangan...? tunggu dulu dech..

Pas masuk taxi "tarif lama", bilang selamat siang pak..."taxi driver" jawab dengan suara lembut "selamat siang bu..." LHO! wanita rupanya, for the very first time for me..to know for real taxi driver lady... dan aku jadi penumpangnya.., tidak gender hanya merasa agak surprise dan merasa apa ya...bingung lah menggambarkannya..

aku panggil "mbak" ke ibu supir taxi ini...mulai lah..aku membuka percakapan..karna ingin tau ato usil..beti lah..beda-beda tipis...

+ mbak, udah lama jadi supir taxi?

- udah bu, lumayan 1 tahun...

+ emang banyak ya supir taxi perempuan (yg bener perempuan apa wanita sich?...tau ah)

- banyak kok bu..

+ trus ngga takut? kalo2 ada orang jahat naik taxi mbak?

- engga lah udah biasa..

+ tapi kan narik kalo siang doang ya..., ngga sampe malem kan?

- engga bu 24 jam, karna ngejar setoran..kayak sekarang saya baru keluar siang..nanti saya

sampe jam 12 ato jam malam trus istirahat jam 6 pagi jalan lagi sampe siang..

masih dengan pikiran "how brave this woman on the street...at night...." masih nanya lagi..

+ ngga takut ya mbak...malem-malem gitu...

- engga bu, tadinya sich suka capek dan sampe sakit tipus, tapi sekarang 1 hari ngga kerja

ngga betah...habis gimana bu..cari kerjaan kan susah sekarang.., ngga dapat kerjaan..

+ iya lah..mbak tapi tetep harus hati-hati ya..

ini bener2 lho dari hatiku yang terdalem... :-(

Percakapan masih berlanjut sebenernya dia diterima jadi supir bus-way cuma SIM mesti bikin yang untuk bis, crita setoran, penghasilan dan kisah2 lain masih terus .... sampe aku turun di gedung kantor ku ..., sepanjang ngobrol itu aku masih belum bisa menerima wanita.. dengan pekerjaan yg penuh resiko itu..entah ya.., bukan aku secara sebagai wanita minta dikasihani..hanya saja... secara alami malam2 ditengah jalan..istirahat/tidur didalam taxi malam2 di jalan..rasanya gimana gitu, tapi mungkin itulah Perjuangan hidup?

Setelah itu aku jadi malu ama diri sendiri dan TUHAN yg telah memberikan begitu banyak buat aku dan keluargaku tapi aku masih suka ngeluh.., masih merasa perlu pernyataan tentang diri sendiri dari orang lain..yang bener2 itu ngga penting.., masih kepingin beli ini itu...aduch TUHAN ampuni aku...Have mercy on me... i was so blind ... i know that im a lucky woman...turned out i know that im a verrrrrrrrrry..lucky one..., THANK YOU... THANK YOU... forgive me for mis-behaved which must be very annoying .... to YOU.

Dear Lord,

please Bless the taxi driver ladies wherever they are.., send your Angels to protect them from evil along the way ... and bless their Family, and give them other jobs if possible so then they could stay at home during the night, specially the ones who have children to support ... Lord, Thank you for listening to my prayer and theirs. Ameen.

what's so called being Positive...

now we could easily find the self-improvement-books or courses..which lead to become positive person..whenever we read the books or joined the course or training/workshop..its like we found something new..something that we could apply to our daily life..specially things to do with our professional work life..., How to think B to reach B thing, How we should not limit our thought or ability..sort of thing like that ...

Everything looks easily to follow, complete with guidance of steps...to get the final result. My frend told me that She got the result already by following this, thus she made the decision that She would quit the job by mid of this year and build her own thing..i was so impressed about her decision ...

another fren of mine, she made the decision to leave the job as a secretary and became an insurance agent together with her husband and she made it, i saw her name on the newspaper where her insurance company put a big Ad putting her names as MDRT (i didnt know what it means..just called it as achievement...)

Then the problem why i didnt have a courage to do the same ... many people said if you dont love the job then leave...is that simple? what about set of responsibility that you have...? should we have put them on consideration right? or am i too coward to face the changes?...exactly i feel like a coward now...completely... , i love my job really ... but in the certain circumstances i've been pushed not to like them at the same time ...

i have busy brain at this moment..but no time for regret...yes NO regret. Its time to move on, be positive and grateful ... as i heard the preacher told me last Sunday which really inspired me pure and simple ... but sometime hardly to manifest in my daily life...

GOD give the prosperity in all areas to be our right as fruits

but the root should be built in holy life ... both in tought, mind, heart and behaviour so then

our life would be fruitfull and blessed ...

i was stunned listening to these words.., if so..i definetely need HELP.....

Liburan tanpa rencana..

Liburan yang tidak direncanakan itu tepatnya mungkin judulnya,... crita keputusan ini di ambil karna para Asisten-2 handal di rumah pada pulang kampung..karna "mantu" dan yang satu sebagai tantenya juga harus hadir..akhirnya..."yours trully" ini harus cuti untuk melakukan tugas2 yang memang seharusnya menjadi tugas pokok sebagai ibu rumah tangga yang selama ini terabaikan...toooooooooooooolloooooooonggg....

Alih2 ini kerjaan setiap lebaran, eh ini terjadi in the middle of the year..not even middle dech baru kuartal pertama kali ya...ya udah si mami mesti cuti..., eh si ayah ikutan cuti..membayangkan harus melakukan semuanya sendiri aja udah pegel2...akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk ikutan pulang kampung nengok orang-tua ... acara berbhakti sekalian ngungsi dech...(manja memang ya...kita ini..) anak2 juga ikutan cuti dech...dengan membawa materi2 pelajaran selama bolos 3 hari.. "3-days-home-schooling" la critanya...who's gonna be the teacher?.... ga perlu di jelasin kali ya..

Kakak Gifta yang masih harus bertanggung-jawab atas keputusan bolos orang-tuanya dengan mengerjakan tugas2 3-days-home-schooling di kamar hotel...., dan suka protes kenapa nugra engga Mi...? karna nugra masih kecil ya...? nach itu tau jawabnya..

Jumat malam this business took effect ..semua asisten udah ngga ada...jadi "no-friday-after-work-coffee" dech...bye mba nah, bye mba titi..jangan telat pulangnya ya..., dengan yakin si mami bisa meng-handle semua sendiri...whats difficult about it anyway kan?... wanti2 ke ayah...."yah..kalo pulang malem langsung makan di luar aja ya..., biar ngga usah masak lagi.." dengan cepat ayah setuju..."beres..." katanya mantap..., jam 9 malam ayah pulang ...tanya "mi ada makanan apa?" LHO! katanya mau makan di luar...ah ngga sempet...jadi....udach alhasil...terpaksa nyalain kompor...dan seadanya lah.. dadar telor, sayur seadanya yang penting. nasi hangat.. cukup..cuma urusannya yaitu cuci piriiiiiiiiiing, penggorengan dan temen2nya dech...(he..he..he..)

Gifta ajak nugra main "swing it" istilah si kakak, dengan patuh penumpang setuju dengan arrangement kakak, lama the swing makin kenceng sampe-sampe penumpang teriak2 dech..., akhirnya penumpang turun, tapi ... buat kakak..tetep swing with or without dech..!! jalan terus...

Sabtu pagi, rencana kita mau langsung ke Purwokerto setelah semua beres, rumah beres..anak2 beres..soonest the best...eh ternyata ngga beres..., check list panjang...coz we're gonna 8 hours driving with children..jadi mesti make sure semua tersedia..dari siapin makanan, susu, snacking....pokoknya name it..."better safe than sorry" alhasil ...banyak banget yg mesti di bawa..., tapi anak2 begitu sweet-sweet-potato (apa coba maksudnya..) ...so independent dan mengagumkan, big sister take care of her brother..and the other way around cukup menolong..., Nugra sempet bantuin ngepel..., Gifta jagain adeknya..dengan gaya big-sister!pushed-him-around!... telling nugra what to do...jadi Boss Gifta?

Lima hari perjalanan yang cukup melelahkan..kita singgah ke 5 kota..tapi menjadi hal2 yang menyenangkan, banyak hal yang kita lupa untuk kita omongin secara suami-istri gitu lho.., jadi keinget selama perjalanan...Jakarta-Purwokerto to see Opa for 2 nights-Jogja one night to see Eyang-Cirebon one night to see nobody... kebayang dech capeknya..tapi semua dilalui dengan baik..

Selama perjalanan kita makan yang kita mau makan, kita minum apa yang pengen kita minum ngga peraturan...rambu2nya cuma sepanjang anak2 bisa makan akhirnya segala peraturan food combining dan air hangat plus jeruk nipis tinggal kenangan sepanjang cuti...sarapan pagi di hotel, siang dan malam..apa yg anak2 mau..biasanya ayam goreng kalasan ..dan kremesnya jadi menu hampir setiap siang,...... tapi bakso dan cendol..itu adalah..."apa yg mami mau...." hhmm...lezat dech...

Biarin aku yang jagain ade Mum.., waduch ok nich Gifta.., sambil cuci piring masih sempet denger these lovely sister-brother ngobrol..."Nugra..sekarang kita main ..adek-kakak ya..., aku yang jadi kakaknya ..nugra yang jadi adeknya ya..., nanti kalo aku suruh tidur harus mau ya..." mulai dech si sutradara kasih arahan pemain ....jadi senyum2 sendiri dech dengernya ada2 aja si kakak nich....aduch beruntung dech si nugra dapet peran sesuai kenyataan...jadi casting-nya gampang ya nugra...he..he..

Sesuai jadwal kita sampai di jakarta Rabu malam. dengan membayangkan rumah yang udah rapi dan bersih...jadi tinggal bongkar barang..tanpa harus "bebenah lagi" karna sesuai perjanjian dengan dearly asistant mba titi, kembali ke jakarta rabu pagi..eh..ada sms...selasa malam..."ibu maaf disini hujan deres, ngga ada yg anter ke terminal jadi pulang di tunda..." ach...kecewa..tp kata Gifta harus dibales mam.."ya udah ngga papa gitu..." ok..dech masa di ajarin anak sich.... malu hati tp sebel aku ketik sms "ok" mau gimana lagi....

Rabu malam itu sampe dijakarta tanpa terlihat lelah Gifta dan Nugra masih tetep suasana bermain..sampai jam 12 malam... ngga bisa tidur kata mereka.., ya iya karna tidur sepanjang jalan di mobil... sementara si ayah dan si mami kelelahan pengen tidur..., akhirnya mereka terlelap juga....kita pun langsung terkapar.., jam 5 pagi terbangun ada orang mengetuk di bawah..tek-tek-tek...langsung terbangun lari membuka pintu...dari lantai atas kutengok....mbak titi ya..." ada jawaban di bawah...."iya bu........Hooooraaaaaaaaaaaaaaay........ my hero is coming.....

Its good to be alone..only four of us.., but if i do have a choice its better if there're somebody around helping us.., Guys you are really our great partner ... thank you for being with us..so far. Thank you..thank you.... !!!