the Complicated Mandarin Language...

Complicated ..at least to me, i found it difficult to catch with this subject..whenever i am able to comprehend the lesson then i could not pronounce the word corectly, once i asked teacher in Gifta's school.., what if this subject is too difficult for my kid (3 times a week with once test every week...writing chinesse character!!!) and these are for 6 years old kid..i've been thinking am i wrong take this class or even the school? but thats the only school in the option right now...we have background why we chose this school. back to my question to senior teacher (she also one of the owner), she got a very wise answer..."Mandarin is difficult for everybody..not only for your kid..as long as she doesnt have any problem with English..just give it a try, but for those kid who has difficulty in English..i suggest just drop, and shift to Bahasa Indonesia.."


The reason why i chose Mandarin (they have Mandarin and Bahasa Indonesia Class...with the same category) because i thought i have paid expensive enough for the school fee so then i have to get more and at the same time, it happened to be my girl's choice..coz she loves mandarin.., but it turned out the mummy has to be more active..so as my girl so then i studied..using the same book. till sometime i have to check the homework after they slept..slightly read the book..and go over..that's worse..Man...really lost in translation..


So many stories about this subject, i really need help so then my girl could follow not only for getting the points itself but to even deepter, so then one day she could talk Mandarin and also write..(wuiiiiiiiih..Mum's ambition all right dech!! ) i dont really much care about score/marks, i just want my girl enjoy learning the subject and good result in the end of the day.

make the story short..i got the young talented Lao shi (=teacher) to have Mandarin session at home "one hour every Monday". The first day, i worked half day the purpose of meeting this lao shi at home and have some points of view ..how this is going..the method she used and everything.. so far just great..

I got good feed back at first , she said that my girl easy to comprehend but need practice to pronounce the word..she compared..bla..bla.., the next week my girl got 100 score for test..good girl, but along the week that i have to leave her for business trip..she got low score for that week test.., it seems this Lao shi pretty disappointed about the result..while to me yeaw..a bit upset but its ok i didnt make a big deal of it.., its not end of the world..still plenty of time. Last Monday, our mbak said that Lao shi need to talk to me..wondering what about? then i called her..

+ Hi Lao shi did u ask me to call you? ada apa?
- Iya tante..itu Gifta tadi aku ajarin 2 crita tapi kayaknya satu aja belum kepegang padahal udah 1 jam lebih..
+ Oh ya ngga papa lah.. kita coba aja...(i am the Mum who willing to take any chance for my girl)
- Iya..trus kayaknya Gifta kurang cepet nangkep....
+ (me speechless...think this young teacher lady has been crossing the line...)
- maksudnya kurang cepet kalo nangkep Mandarin.. (she added ..)
+ ngga papa lah..di coba aja.. (i was really..reallly...uncomfortable with her judgement, she just underestimated my daughter....)
+ no worries..Lao shi

But after that conversation i was really in deep anger...and got no nerve to tell Ayah..he would be pist off for sure..., so i've been thinking of terminate this mandarin session at home..and i dont care if she is the best mandarin teacher in the world.., I AM THE MOTHER I COULD DO EVEN BETTER THAN HER..EVEN I DONT KNOW MANDARIN..., what do you think Ladies...Mummies...? any idea...

Note :
somehow mum being so emotional..if thing to do with the children, but have to be wise to see the problem from different angle..mum decided to keep the mandarin session at home. Sorry Lao-shi for me being so emotional!! if you've got the chance to read this entry...

Kaki..the autumn fruit..

we had really nice lunch at very traditional tempura restaurant at Takamatsu-country side of Japan..love the food.., even the rice was really yummy..all fresh.."anago-ebi-taco-daicon-hamachi fishi-and vegies" and traditional..hhmm..this country is really something so neat..organize and polite.., dont tell Indonesian is very polite and kind.., they are really more polite..kind i dont know... :-) very strict to the rules i may say..now wonder they became very strong economically..

in the end of lunch..the old lady who also owns the restaurant serve and cook together with his hubby which i found romantic way to spend the oldies..ha..ha....offered us fruit.., we simply say yes..we've been told that was autumn fruit called "kaki"...funny name isnt it? the first time ..when it served the fruit just deja vu rembering me of kesemek fruit when i was little..which really difficult to find also these days.., but "kaki fruit" tastes a bit different with kesemek that we know..sweeter but the texture similar.., since then we almost had kaki fruit all the way .."this is kaki..fruit.." and we proudly say.."oh yeah..we also have in Indonesia...we called kesemek..." the i would heard..."oooh ok.....what mek?" what a ugly name they thought probably..

we got a chance to see the view of country side..and i saw the orange fruit all over the place with no leave just fruits all over the branches..just like "fake" ...oh thats kaki fruit, we just like a couple of kids (me and my boss)...take the pictures..the one that i took just like the wild one..like no one has them..so beautifuuuuuuull...its just in between autumn leaves change to red..there you go the fruit tree was there...

after we got to Tokyo we just like haunted by kaki fruit stories..., one of big boss told the story that one Japanese..brought kaki fruit seed to indonesia..and plant there.."oh i see that kesemek was coming from..." becoz the climate pretty much different so they grow differently...hhhmm..pretty classical..dont you think? like foreign people who stayed in indonesia too long... dont get offended could be positif ...and could be either way..

How come i've never heard any story of our fruits..mango, salak, durian..just any story...but Hey i took so much time talking rubbish...who cares anyway just the fruits....!! KESEMEK anyone...???

Lousy Mum all right...

No matter how hard i tried to be a good Mum..still sad story indeed coming around in between managing my home and works..home means children and their activities ...it happened like yesterday

Gifta Mandarin Small Test Story..soon i knew that Gifta would have Mandarin small test, on the way back home from work i called one the mum that i believe a-very- reliable- source for any information related to school. She told me the material for test..would page 53 to 59 for the day after tomorrow, hhmmm...so i still have time then..i usually prepare vocabulary flash card that i made myself related to this page to help my girl to study not always..if still have time. On the way Ayah called that the children want McD for dinner, they didnt want to eat the whole day coz they were not feeling well...so then when ayah called, they asked for McD and Ayah was delegating to me..see the SOP really works here...what-a-busy-after-office-hour-duty :-)

with bag of Mc D, i got home Nugra's only want chips, Gifta some of chicken and rice..hhmm...they're not fully recovered from fever...so they still lost their appetite...i feel sad, tired yes but more to sad to see my lovely ones pada lemes begitu...i decided tomorrow Gifta doesnt have to go to school, Nugra has to go for Photo session...He was going to wear the Bali traditional Custom ..He's so excited..so then ok, that would be ok ..i think. The next day Gifta insisted to go to school, as usual i dropped off before ofis everything normal..until 10 o'clock i"m got a call from ita (one of the mums at school) that "nugra-muntah-muntah" di sekolah..."keliatannya lemes banget"...i feel like going home but i could not so i call my assistant to pick up my boy...., i called home my assistant said that he only wanted to eat apple didnt want anything else..i feel so frustrating that i couldn't be with him...

the story goes..sorry if its bored you to death, i tried to leave early but traffic put me in damage..i got home 7.30...straight to business.., see how's the kids doing..specially nugra...he didnt have fever but still "lemes-lemes", and he went to bed early with his dad..while Kakak would have test..so then had to prepare..there you go.. i got my flash card already "from -shua ya till yuan quan" if you know what i mean..starting.."brush teeth" then my girl say " shua ya".."fast" then my girl said "kuai".. i could see the Gifta was tired..she said mum i am tired.., i asked to sit in my lap..to continue.., still tired continue in bed..she got spirit you know..!! i am so proud of her...

In the morning, I walked with her to the class...its full already..i wanna make sure that she's all rite, she didnt make family tree home work i said its ok i would talk to her teacher... then i heard over two-mums conversation about mandarin small-test...it turned out the test was not from the page that we prepared but different..its from "the-worksheet"... WHAT!!!!!!

without invitation i joined the conversation.. "R u Sure??" yes.., what about page 55-59 ? i insist alias ngotot.."its homework" ..OMG...i felt really bad, i didnt how to react....just feeling guilty all over to my girl. i should have checked to other mum..but its too late...nothing i could about it..

i said sorry to my Gifta.., it was completely mum's fault ... it seems she didnt worry at all, i should learn from her...

this thing would not go away..its still going around in my head, i saw my watched it was 3 oclock oh my baby girl already home by now so then i called her..

+ hi Gifta..what are you doing?

- im doing my home-work mum..its math

+ so how's your test today? can you do it?

- hhhmm..kayaknya sih ngga bisa... (with-no-regret-tone)

+ its ok lah..maafin mami ya..

- ok mum..

most important thing ...that she is all right..!! but still I am a lousy mum all right!!!

Ade paksa kakak senyum...

Lho kakak kok cemberut sih?? ayoo senyum dong kak...

Nugra..ayo dong bilang kakak senyum..

sesuai instruksi..nugra "ask" kakak to smile...

"ayooooooooo kakak Gifta senyum...ayo kak...." kata nugra membujuk setengah memaksa...:)

"Kakak udah senyum nich..ayoo cepet di foto"

berhasil..dech misi nugra bikin kakak senyum..

look at their smile..very look a like..dont you think?

Kangen...

Kangen..banget dech sama kakak juga adek.., kangen ini makin membuncah..ceile membuncah kayak ombak, pada saat teringat kita ngomel2 ke mereka..terutama sama kakak pas belajar.., kenapa ya..aku kok ngga bisa lebih sabar ke anak2...??? meskipun udah di coba...sabar tapi tetep senewen..

yang ada kalo inget jadi merasa bersalah ngga karu2an...sedih, kangen ...pengen cepet pulang..mau minta maaf..

Maafin mami ya kak..., mami ngga marah2 lagi dech...

Pokoknya mami ngaku dech mami yang salah!!! kakak kan pasti cuma niru..cetak ayah ato mami..

Mami janji dech..bantuin mami ya..biar ngga marah-marah lagi, biar jadi mami yang baik dan bijaksana...

Love,
mami

Mengapa kau meninggalkan ku...

sebuah perjuangan untuk memiliki mu baik mental maupun spiritual..apa iya betul engkau cukup berharga untuk di miliki..., warna merah yang begitu menarik perhatian ku. Kalo boleh terus terang.... aku tidak benar2 memerlukan ..bahasa gaul "ga butuh-butuh amat dech!" tapi kau tau kan waktu itu aku lagi stress jadi perlu pelampiasan...yang sehat.. :-)

Dengan segala pertimbangan akhirnya ..kukeluarkan dompet ku demi dirimu.., dengan bangga aku memilki mu...meskipun sebenarnya kurang cocok dengan penampilan ku yang jauh dari mewah..tapi tak apa habis gimana dong aku sudah kadung jatuh cinta padamu..

Tapi mengapa oh mengapa (dangdut banget ngga sich?).. engkau begitu cepat menghilang...baru aku tarok di ruang tamu kantor orang..trus langsung menghilang tanpa bekas, tanpa pengakuan satupun pernah melihat...masa kau begitu magic sih...!! tapi maafin aku dech aku yang teledor mungkin yang "menemukan mu" jauh membutuhkan dirimu dari aku...apapun alasannya...

aku sering merindukan mu.., tapi untuk berjuang memiliki mu kembali...no thank you...!!!!!!!! O2-life punya ayah...sudah jadi pelipur lara ku....jadi dont get the wrong idea, nothing personal..its completely something to do with my wallet..thats all... bye my dear...sorry i lost you..

my dream

Kita pasti punya keinginan ya.. , impian lah..lebih persisnya meskipun kadang-kadang keinginan kita berubah-ubah terus ngikutin situasi hati ato mood. yours trully ini biangnya ganti-ganti keinginan alias labil..sebentar kepengen ini sebentar pengen itu..alhasil nyontek istilah "efa" nich pesenannya ngga dateng2..kayak kita dateng ke restoran nich pesen bakmi goreng..eh ga jadi deng nasi goreng aja..eh ngga jadi soto ayam kayaknya enak nich..udah di catet apa si pelayan berubah lagi..jadi nasi rames... ( ini pasti di warteg dech bukan restoran!!)..kata si pelayan capeeeeeeeeeeeeekkk..dech..

Konon kabarnya kalo demikian keinginan kalo berubah-rubah...ya itu persis kayak cerita di warteg itu ngga terwujud-wujud, nach cerita dari itu maka si mami labil ini pengen "wannabestableperson" yang tau apa yang di kepengenin..dengan diskusi sana diskusi sini...maksud nya ngrumpi sana ngrumpi sini!! baca sana baca sini, akhirnya bikin dech apa yang pengen di capai..dengan rentang waktu berapa lama (caielllllllllleeeeeeeee....suit-suit...), dan kira apa yang mesti di lakukan...ketemulah rumus keinginan 4/4 5K (efa you must know what i mean...we set up this for pretty some time right...?) dan sekarang gimana cara achieve-nya nich...

katanya gini-gini..ngga boleh nyerah..."dont-ever-give-up-dont-ever-quit-motto"..praktek dech nich critanya.., keliatannya di awal2 waduch keliatannya lancar nich .. bakal bisa nich...lho..kok tersendat-tersendat, ngga boleh nyerah..., terus ... maju...kok jadi capek banget dan keteteran nich..wah something wrong kayaknya...terlalu ngotot ampe badan pegel sana pegel sini...apa iya mesti begini nich...?

Kenapa susah ya..?? apa yang aku kepengen ngga ada di menu?? ah masa sih ngga ada di menu? kan masih di dunia...pasti ada lah ya..., pasti satu titik kesimpulan..yang masih belum tersimpul.., i just let it flow, but the dream's still there...

very simple dream...wanna have more time with my children, have time to take care of the house and dear hubby (hubby first? confusing :-) ... recently i felt guilty leaving my children all alone only with our assistants...specially when they are growing up now they need even more attention from me their mum...accompany them doing their home works instead of only checking ..while they were ready to go to bed... :( for some people maybe its not a big deal..but it is for me..so this is my dream for me...a strong one, a very strong or strongest one i guess among any other dream....

is it just me...or its a normal having this feeling...?