Real Friendship or just same interest...?

Completely normal if in this life..feeling like or dislike, even if we try hard to avoid the negative feeling, Some people like you and some people dont ... for their own reason, which sometime we could not even understand ... we cant make everybody happy no matter how hard or even perfect you're trying..coz every person has different expectations about thing..even for the same thing..

Its true story about friendship that I have with 'one very important Lady'... we had hilarious relationship in the past, we were one hell good team.."back up each other" but more for business other than personal ...i've known her for like 15 years..yes 15 years..its not short time at all for two people working together... i knew her family in complete package .. her husband & children, parents/in low, sister-brother just imagine how closed i was with this Lady ... as famous said that there's no party which is not over ...

It was the time when everything seems not easy .... one situation changed her professional career from very strategic level into different kinda post, without me being involved... from then on everything seems different, friendship or relationship that we built had no meaning... only its happened that i should handle some of her tasks (coz i was her 2nd layer...), career or business was all about... eventually i know that there were no friendship between us .... only "interest" that i could accommodate her and not endanger or threat her in any way in terms of business... so then im her friend..

Like the up-side down show, that's also happened in our relationship...over-nothing, yes, I might say over-nothing ...but hey..who knows that i might have hurt her feeling so badly so then she decided to make me disappear from her life..., so then I take my chances to tell her ....personally...

• dearest ibu, im really sorry if i've hurt your feeling in any ways.., never have and never will intentionally harm you...
• dearest ibu, the friendship that we had doesnt mean anything to you? i dont believe that coz i knew you too well..
• dearest ibu, but if "those things" are really meant to you...to be in your highest priority so be it..
• dearest ibu, one thing i want u to know that deep down in my heart, i still miss you..we still can be a great team ... as usual ...if you want..you may still keep the credit... dont worry about me...im still the same person that u know 15 years ago...just more mature and more personality (narcis ngga tuch gue!!!!)

Learnt Lesson share with my children:

My love, Don't let anyone or anything determine what you think or what you are feeling..., be a winner, think and act like one...then you became a real winner..no matter what real situation you're dealing with. Be sincere, do your utmost, and yr best wishes .. Allah Almighty will send the best things for you personally....

BFF --- Best Friend Forever...

Im writing this entry to dedicate to my very best friend (whos so happenedly changed her last name and also inspired me to do the same..hhmm...) to tell her how happy I am to see her right now...How She is now really in the complete package!! Happy in her marriage..Happy in her job...Happy in her spiritual life..cant ask for more..

If I re-called first time we met, we were "seriously-dangerously single"...like we were destined to meet-up to share all stupid-stories we had..so then we knew that we were not alone. We could talk for hours only people were in love could compete with us... we talked about everything..from family issue, living single...and the adventure of being one.., friends movie..junk food, junk mail, junk Man and their junk acts (ha..ha..)...like we share everything. i remember we went to Bali for week-end, and we could not even stop talking since we left my office till we landed in Bali..not even when the airplane landed we were talking half screaming...so then our conversation continued...its really nut...(efa..i always laugh every time i remembered this..i miss our time..)

we always say that we've never thought... we could be so lucky to have family like today..., I would've agreed even more..yes we are so lucky.., and im feel so lucky to have a fren like you..wish a very best in everything..to "You and Abang.".

as teenagers says nowadays...

"Best Friend Forever.."

hope that we will be...

PR dari Lisa...

Wow Lisa..homework from u... to spread the love, so Im being the spreader of Love? you must be joking, anyway thank you...thank you so then to whom should spread the love to...(can i have sometime to think..to whom should i deliver...? )

It was crossed since the first..but should i ? since most the spreader of love are Mommies..so then I would proudly deliver this to 'an outstanding Hubby and Daddy' .... A clear blue sky..silahkan Pak Idham ....

Photo Box,..Cheap and Entertaining..

Mungkin kita ketinggalan jaman dan sedikit norak, in one fine Sunday..iseng2 kita coba foto box.."foto gaul" kata Gifta..eh ternyata fun juga..squeeze-up di photo box yang sempit..(free to laugh guys..).. narcis abis...!!!!

Apa-apa yelow...

If you love fear factor doing things to conquer your fear, I believe we are Mom (if i could speak on behalf of Mom) we have "Mom's factor". Its the reality show, "How Mother control and manage their emotions in dealing with daily routines specially with their children". I found out the most interesting is the part when the sensitive issue being tested, which i called "uji kesabaran".... i have to sit every-night with my children.... either to do their home work or just daily study to keep them in pattern of discipline I believe Im kind of person .. quite in control (wink!!) , not easy to tense but when it comes into this subject, I lost my control sometime..sometime :) for real..again only sometime..

The difficulty is not in making them understand or comprehend the subject but..non-technical thing like..."ini dulu lah mi.., itu dulu ya mi..., sebentar aja mi...wanna drink first, or can i watch tv after this...?" this session would be needed around 15 minutes, while I was just coming back from the office straight go to this business..even more perfect when "their advocate" around "boleh ngga aku belajarnya sama ayah...?" dont get the wrong idea it would share the burden, children also knows political game, to be honest I hate being bad cop all the time, and Ayah's always been a good cop specially to our little girl...like saving by the bell...(bad cop that everybody loves???? the answer would be Mommy....)

This is story of our routine day..during "waktu belajar"..with my girl

+ Gifta, read this book ok..? (i picked one small story book to practice her reading ability..)
- Why not this..? this is very easy..(she picked other book..)
+ No, this one..u should read loudly..remember on sound..and join..
(She started and just finished one sentence and stopped..and looked at me..)
- I need something for my hair...
(without any comment I get her hair band randomly and put on her head...and get it done..)

- I dont want this one Mom, I want the pink one with heart and fluffy on it..

(here u go guys...and no point of arguing..Mom's got do what Mom's got to do...)
+ ok continue reading..and do the exercise after..
(She continued reading..and again stopped..)
- Mommy why apa-apa yelow? apa-apa yelow?
(she meant everything looked yellow in her eyes, and I was so worried, thought She was dizzy or something..)
+ Have a drink Gifta.., some more..how do u feel now? (worried and concern ..yellow?..oh no, its impossible...tried to get rid of bad thought..)
- still apa-apa yelow Mom..
+ r u ok? feel pusing or perut ngga enak? (concern..and worried..)
- No,...Oooh I know Mom..your cloth is yellow... jadi apa-apa jadi yellow...

Is it really something being a Mom or what?...dont go for fear factor juz go to "Mom's factor"....you will enjoy watching it.. funny as long as u're not the actor..

To my Lovely children :
Seriously, Mommy really enjoy being in this show makes me feel like a winner everyday by seeing you grow.... Enjoy every part..every moment.. Specially when little beautiful voice of yours whispering.."Thank you Mom..." or "I love you Mom..." you guys give me the world...

Everybody was young once....

about 2 weeks ago, we accidentally got life lesson to think of...about what we've done in our life..was it enough, enough in terms of doing a good deed...sharing, caring, loving..either to family/frens or to someone that we didnt even know... to the needy for instance. Im not talking about money or things.. that we put aside every month or year..but our time..or whatever simple things that we share with others, giving not from the left-over...

It was Sunday, we dropped our girl to her fren's house juz near the house... the road was narrow in our neighbourhood... (Tebet belakang gitu lho!!!), we were going to drive away..but there was motor-cycle stopped in road juz few metres in front of us and I didnt know whether it was public or private (maksud gue..ojek apa bukan gitu..) then we had to wait untill this guy finished to drop his "penumpang" ..who's very old and handicapped coz I saw his iron stick....we wait for 5 minutes..he couldnt get off from the motor-cycle, and it seemed that this old man didnt get any help.. and wait for another 5 minutes.. still could not..then I made conclusion..that this man definetely need help, so then I told ayah that we should help him...instead of juz waiting in the car.., make the story short...then we got off the car...

Oh..It was really breaking my heart to see this old Man, he was so powerless..and weak, we tried to bang door gate but no sign that someone would open it from inside so then decided to open them ... and knocked the door for this old Man..we found out finally..it was his house, and a young Man finally opened the door and handed him over..and we left...

In the car, we were in silent, we remembered our folks...specially our father..we're so thankful there is somebody who takes care of our fathers everyday and there will be always somebody around them whenever they need.. (father from both sides..quite old ayah's around 70 years and mine over 80 years old...). I told ayah that Old Man must be handsome when He was young..I could see that (my expertise...wink!!) and probably wealthy enough for the house is quite big ... or even probably carrying golf club every week end..browsing golf course all over the place with his buddys as hobby...when he was in the prime age..(not try to judge people..juz my imagination..). Ayah gave no comment as ussual...I believed He was busy with his mind..his face looked sad...

It's juz a picture for all us as a Human being...Everybody was young once right...and Everybody will grow old for sure....... the Question went around-around..in my head what should we do now so then we can spend our old days happily with our children and grand or even with our grand-grand children...when we grow old. I dont have the answer as my life is not perfect either far away from perfect, what I can do now..juz give my smile and try to do my best...and be happy for what I am.. I believe whatever was coming from 'ABOVE' is the best for me and also for my family...

Have a good life everyone.....!!! Love and show your loving care to your loved ones while you can....

Always good to have a gentleman around...

As a Mom, recognizing the character of

your child was not difficult at all.. cause it's part of you and your half..., every child has a unique character, beautiful in their way..without even put the effort to be , they already are. My two children have different character...Easy guess which one is the Daddy..and which one is the Mommy.....

( Ayah if you read this I could not stop smiling..., you always said that they both like u.....? )

But whatever the character my children have...once again...they are dazzling to my eyes..., as my boy, Nugra...He is very helpful person..real gentleman indeed... (deeeeeee.... siapa dulu emaknya....) always try to help people in many occasions...either school, or at home...or do the groceries... Thanks Nugra...You are a real Gentleman..Mommy love you so much...

+ Nugra would help Mommy with the sugar...?

- Ok..Mom..(with pleasure...)

dont have even asked him twice... so sweet...

? Nugra, U will be in Mom's blog soon...coz Mommy is gonna write about this...

(you can guess who were saying this ...yeah..right...He's been teasing me blogging.....)

Dont tell anyone Policy....

Its common, specially among the gossipers either white gossip or black one..."the Dont-tell-anyone-Policy". Even though it was not really effective coz the rumours or news regardless true or untrue still spread out all over...

Im not going to talk about gossip...'ve been trying to avoid...he..he..finally repent from all those things, but I found that 'policy' was not only belong to adult..(as we dare called ourselves adult....even sometimes we dont even understand the meaning..@@##!!!), but its been also in our children dictionary or vocabulary whatever you might call that....Did I say our children..? maybe it should my children...

This is the conversation with my little girl in the car ...on the way to her school :

+ Is Chika (not a real name) new student?

- Yes, but She still cant do much in the class.. She cant read either Bahasa or English.....(She spelled the Alphabet for Bahasa and English)..but Mom dont tell anyone..ok..

I juz smiled why I should tell anyone about such thing, thats probably my girl felt guilty talking about her fren to me..and worry that I would tell anyone. Did I tell anyone..not really, juz you...(who's She's been copying....then...??)

Funny but I should watch what next.., one night we were talking about how important that we have to eat properly without getting fat ...

+ Talking about being fat, who's fatter me or Mommy's J? (one of the mom at school...sorry :( fren......)

- Hhmm..hmmm..(she found the difficulty to answer this question, She was being careful not disappoint anyone..)

+ Who? (I was curious to death...)

- Hhmm..J's Mom..but dont tell anyone ok Mom...

Wow smile was all over my heart..could be the widest smile in a month, but wait a minute...have I been an evil Mom..? Have I mis-lead her in anyway...juz dont tell anyone ok....